Mostly it has been no need for me to post, as the days have been going past so fast without smoking as well. :)
However, yesterday was for some reason a bit more difficult, kept wanting a cigarette but the main thing is that I did not go to the shop to get some. After some time, the wishes passed so all is good again. Today not really wanting. Or in a way the thought is there of course, as the brainwashing is pretty strong in every smoker's mind, but it is quite easy to resist and passes fast. After all, cigarettes give you no benefits, and like so many smokers say "I smoke because I like to" (which is total bollocks) it is only the nicotine monster that wants a fix. I will keep on ignoring it. :)
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Trolling smokers at work...
...is great fun in a way! mostly makes me laugh at the responses I get, they are totally dismissing any and all facts about cigarettes that are 100% true. Cannot believe I used to do the same.
Yet still fun to argue about them being slaves to the habit, and are totally ignoring the fact that smoking in and of itself is neither cool, healthy or beneficial in any way. It makes you smell disgusting, makes you short of breath, impacts your taste and smell, seriously cuts into your finances and overall makes you a part of a minority that is getting smaller and smaller.
Here's to being free! I can only hope that I will keep my belief and determination to not smoke.
And I have to be honest, ranting here about people who smoke, writing about my dreams that are awesome, feeling good etc is great fun indeed.
But, like I've read, when the initial "high" of not smoking" wears off, many start again because they do not feel like they are a smoker anymore. And it has happened to many people when they're 3, 6 months or even years into being smoke free.
Overall, writing here about all this helps a lot, and I'm definitely sure that down the line, I can always come back to read what I wrote in the beginning, if I should ever have a serious thought about having a smoke.
Yet still fun to argue about them being slaves to the habit, and are totally ignoring the fact that smoking in and of itself is neither cool, healthy or beneficial in any way. It makes you smell disgusting, makes you short of breath, impacts your taste and smell, seriously cuts into your finances and overall makes you a part of a minority that is getting smaller and smaller.
Here's to being free! I can only hope that I will keep my belief and determination to not smoke.
And I have to be honest, ranting here about people who smoke, writing about my dreams that are awesome, feeling good etc is great fun indeed.
But, like I've read, when the initial "high" of not smoking" wears off, many start again because they do not feel like they are a smoker anymore. And it has happened to many people when they're 3, 6 months or even years into being smoke free.
Overall, writing here about all this helps a lot, and I'm definitely sure that down the line, I can always come back to read what I wrote in the beginning, if I should ever have a serious thought about having a smoke.
No urges that i've felt yet + science
Feeling great, only again had some trouble sleeping until alarm rang.
Other than that, again the dream I had last night was totally awesome: in the evening I happened to read an old National Geographic magazine(an article about Hawaii and surfing), and in the dream I was on a yacht (with my now-ex, and two friends) in a storm. The ride was great, until the moment when a too big wave came, and we hit the water nose first.
Next thing I know, I wake up in the dream, and we realise we are floating somewhere near the western coast of the US. After that nothing happened that i can remember.
Great fun though, such vivid dreams are totally like adventures :)
Looks like my theory of a smoker's oxygen-deprived brain during sleep might be true after all? Not quite, yet there is definitely some science behind this:
http://www.stopsmoking.org.uk/content/TopNavigation/QuittingSmoking/VividDreamsExplained.aspx
So everyone, stop smoking and you'll dream with a lot more clarity! :)
Other than that, again the dream I had last night was totally awesome: in the evening I happened to read an old National Geographic magazine(an article about Hawaii and surfing), and in the dream I was on a yacht (with my now-ex, and two friends) in a storm. The ride was great, until the moment when a too big wave came, and we hit the water nose first.
Next thing I know, I wake up in the dream, and we realise we are floating somewhere near the western coast of the US. After that nothing happened that i can remember.
Great fun though, such vivid dreams are totally like adventures :)
Looks like my theory of a smoker's oxygen-deprived brain during sleep might be true after all? Not quite, yet there is definitely some science behind this:
http://www.stopsmoking.org.uk/content/TopNavigation/QuittingSmoking/VividDreamsExplained.aspx
So everyone, stop smoking and you'll dream with a lot more clarity! :)
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Action movies!
No smokes still :)
But, had a really great dream yesterday! It was like a full blown action movie basically, with me watching the action (and only participating in the latter part where it came clear that I was the new recruit in the special ops team).
Anyway great fun, and basically I do not really remember or desire smokes when I'm home alone. Feeling great, tried to run yestserday some and wow, could actually do it for like 10-15 minutes. Considering, that I've not run at all during the past years (long distance), felt great.
Every day feeling a little better indeed! :)
But, had a really great dream yesterday! It was like a full blown action movie basically, with me watching the action (and only participating in the latter part where it came clear that I was the new recruit in the special ops team).
Anyway great fun, and basically I do not really remember or desire smokes when I'm home alone. Feeling great, tried to run yestserday some and wow, could actually do it for like 10-15 minutes. Considering, that I've not run at all during the past years (long distance), felt great.
Every day feeling a little better indeed! :)
Monday, April 30, 2012
Reflections on the weekend
Had a nice weekend overall, and did not smoke :)
However, at a friend's place we had some tequila, and he smoked on the balcony, while I joined him there for a few moments, and then discovered a few things:
- the smell of cigarettes felt so strong and the first reaction was almost disgusting. Later it did not disturb so much at all.
- after a few hours, I noticed myself think (damn troll brain), that "it would be cool to have one smoke.
After the second part, I did not join him on the balcony again, and thanks to that, basically forgot about wanting a smoke. Later walked home, and still did not remember the damn fags.
So I would say I am making good progress overall, falling asleep is also easier already. After all, tomorrow midnight will be a full two weeks! :)
A small step at a time, getting healthier and better each day.
However, at a friend's place we had some tequila, and he smoked on the balcony, while I joined him there for a few moments, and then discovered a few things:
- the smell of cigarettes felt so strong and the first reaction was almost disgusting. Later it did not disturb so much at all.
- after a few hours, I noticed myself think (damn troll brain), that "it would be cool to have one smoke.
After the second part, I did not join him on the balcony again, and thanks to that, basically forgot about wanting a smoke. Later walked home, and still did not remember the damn fags.
So I would say I am making good progress overall, falling asleep is also easier already. After all, tomorrow midnight will be a full two weeks! :)
A small step at a time, getting healthier and better each day.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Symptoms of withdrawal
Been reading some materials online, and what can I say - looks like I am experiencing very common symptoms of nicotine withdrawal: trouble sleeping, anxieties, lack of focus sometimes, nervousness.
main thing I'm thinking about: they will get better and better every day, and I will stay strong - I really don't want to start smoking again.
10 days without smokes... I hope I can keep going. Note to self: Buerger's disease. Scary as shit. If a person will not quit after the doctor tells them "quit or you will lose your leg", and will have to have a leg amputated, and still does not quit. This is scaaaaaary.
Have a good weekend!
main thing I'm thinking about: they will get better and better every day, and I will stay strong - I really don't want to start smoking again.
10 days without smokes... I hope I can keep going. Note to self: Buerger's disease. Scary as shit. If a person will not quit after the doctor tells them "quit or you will lose your leg", and will have to have a leg amputated, and still does not quit. This is scaaaaaary.
Have a good weekend!
Last night was interesting
Got home from sauna around midnight (sober), and I must say - had a laugh to myself looking at drunk people in the last bus. Some have trouble standing, some just look like sleeping etc. Oh, and I could so easily smell the alcohol / smoke mixture in the air. It was not very strong, but still. So that's what people complain about in buses (those who are not smokers).
Anyway, after coming home, I immediately went to bed, and just could not fall asleep. All night I was trying really hard not to be awake, but I think I kept waking all the time.
Could it have been the dreams? Because they were pretty vivid again, with some R rated content as well. And being single for just a bit over a month, it could make me much more susceptible to these things.
Also quite a few times thought about smoking while I was awake, mostly along the lines of why not one smoke? But then the counter thought came, which was much stronger - I love being healthier. The small period of time without smokes has shown me just how much cigarettes hurt you and even make you number to most stimuli.
That's my theory anyway.
So in summary - it's great to be without smokes! :)
Anyway, after coming home, I immediately went to bed, and just could not fall asleep. All night I was trying really hard not to be awake, but I think I kept waking all the time.
Could it have been the dreams? Because they were pretty vivid again, with some R rated content as well. And being single for just a bit over a month, it could make me much more susceptible to these things.
Also quite a few times thought about smoking while I was awake, mostly along the lines of why not one smoke? But then the counter thought came, which was much stronger - I love being healthier. The small period of time without smokes has shown me just how much cigarettes hurt you and even make you number to most stimuli.
That's my theory anyway.
So in summary - it's great to be without smokes! :)
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